It's a new day!

Wow it's been awhile since that first post and only due to the business of my life that continues to grow with responsibilities. For some reason I had this gandeur plan that as the kids started to get older I would have more time to do the things that I have always wanted to accomplish. Let me tell you that is so FALSE!!! lol

I feel like most parents do during a certain stage in parenthood where I should have a TAXI sign on the top of my car. My life has become endless amounts of calendars to keep track of all the running around I do. It's quite frightening that when I go into a store I'm actually attracted to calendars; I want all kinds, sizes, and shapes. One day my walls will be pasted with those little puppy/kitten eyes staring at me, flowers constantly in bloom, bank logos....the possibilities are endless in design. OMG I'm scaring myself!

Big events have happened in the last couple of weeks:

1. Our beloved Minnie has gone onto a better place to rest at the feet of God and watch over us while we struggle through our daily burdens. She will be terribly missed forever and her absence is felt heavily. Although these last few months have been a struggle with her constant barking, going outside, and wanting to eat...I now understand it was due to her illnesses and not because she was being a pain. She was always on your lap scratching and licking to get extra love and there wasn't a morning that I woke up to find her snuggled on the couch covered with a blanket. We love you Minnie and hope that your pain has finally gone.

2. This one is HUGE! Drake has now turned 11 years old. I can't get over it, can't wrap my head around the fact that he is growing up so fast. I love all of my children with my whole heart but this is my baby. How do you handle the climb into adulthood of your last child when I've barely come to terms with him not being a toddler? Last nights birthday dinner wasn't as hard for me as I thought but it brings tears to my eyes this morning while tucking him in extra tight to make sure he's warm before I leave for work. Everyone keeps telling me to "let him go" but how do you do that? I don't think you're supposed to let go of your children ever. I mean, yes, you should let them make mistakes to learn from experience, let them make those hard decisions while you painfully sit by and watch because they think you're wrong...but really I just want to keep them closer to me as they grow into these wonderful teens & adults in their venture into the big bad scary world.

So Abbie had her boyfriend over for this birthday dinner lastnight. Bailey was quiet and it was odd having someone else there who normally isn't. I'm not sure how I feel about this whole boyfriend thing. Couldn't she just go on being alone and have millions of cats? I mean cats are great companions and not demanding at all and she could be very happy that way! lol just kidding (kind of). After everything was said and done we started joking around like we do at every meal and it felt like normal again. I think she's done a great job of clouding his opinion of us and I'm sure the whole "scary parent" thing isn't too far off but hopefully he will find that we aren't all that bad.

Well it's time to tackle another day! Onward and upward we go